I’m baaaaaccckkk!
After taking a not-so-breif hiatus from my blogging (due to an incident involving a toddler, a sippy cup, and a death-blow to my Macbook), I am back. I had a great Christmas vacation with my family, and a couple of very nice, relaxing weeks with my boys. I’ve been thinking a lot about New Years Resolutions, and how my feelings on them are so utterly bipolar. On one hand, I find them loathsome and laughable. I’ve never known someone to keep a single one beyond May, and with my perfectionistic tendencies, they seem to do nothing but disappoint me and make me feel like a complete failure when the inevitable happens and I don’t (for example) stop eating chocolate for the rest of my life. However, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that there is this funny little hopelessly optimistic side of me that considers them sweet, encouraging, even romantic. After all, we are imperfect beings and if we can’t have enough self-control to change even just one small thing about ourselves per year, then we are in bigger trouble than we think. Right? Maybe?
So, while the pragmatic, pessimistic realist that lives inside my brain dominates the majority of my life, I have decided to lock her in a closet for a day. I have decided to make a few changes and 2010 is a better time to make them than 2011. I have no intention of winning an Grammy for my shower-singing performances (although it could happen,) adopting an entire Haitian orphanage (if I could afford it, I would in a heartbeat,) or solving that whole Ozone problem we’ve got goin’ on. I will, however, work toward making the Julie Renee of 2011 just a little bit kinder, smarter, and more relaxed than the one who sits typing to you this evening. So here it is. My list of changes (dare I call them “resolutions?”) to make in 2010. <I’d really like a drumroll, please…>
1. I will use “the good china.” I recently invited a couple of friends over for dinner. They are both the kinds of friends who regularly see me with unwashed hair and sans makeup (I’m a mommy now, don’t judge.), and I don’t even think twice about the dog hair on the floor when either of them come to my home. They are just those kinds of friends. Effortless friends. When I woke up on the morning of the dinner and my china credenza just looked so sad. So unloved. I’ve had my wedding China for nearly 8 years now and only used it a handful of times. I always promised myself that I’d never be the type of person who has couches that aren’t allowed to be sat on (and eat on), or have rooms that kids and dogs aren’t allowed into. It’s ridiculous to have such lovely things but never get to use them, live in them, love on them. That night, I set a beautiful table of beautiful linens, warm candles, my grandmother’s crystal, decorative accents, and yes, you guessed it, the GOOD china. I put my hair up, wore some fabulous pumps, and even got to show off my fabulous new Anthropology a la Donna Reed apron that I got for Christmas. The lovely evening made my friends feel special and loved, and while the dishes may have taken a few extra minutes to wash and put away, it was SO worth it. In 2010 I will actually USE my good china, rather than admire it from a distance. Life is short.


2. I will learn to appreciate my husband more. Don’t misunderstand me, I ADORE my Hubs and thank God every day for blessing me with a man like Chris. But do I fully appreciate what an amazing man I ended up with? Probably not. I have been known to (very rarely, of course) pass on my perfectionistic tendencies on him and expect him to be perfect. For example, when we are flossing our teeth at night, and he is finished flossing and ready to start brushing, he usually will get my toothbrush for me also. Now this is where most lovingly devoted wives would say “Aww, thanks sweetie! You’re the bestest!” I, on the other hand, have been known to (VERY rarely) say something more akin to “What do you want me to do with this? I’m not finished flossing yet.” What kind of jerk says that?!?! Apparently I expect him to get his own toothbrush, watch me with bated breath until 20 seconds later when I finish flossing, and then get back up and go get my toothbrush for me. Naturally. <shakes head in disbelieve of her own selfishness> In 2010 I will focus on the 99.89% of my husband that is absolutely perfect, and know that that last 0.11% of him that is imperfect, is only there because God knows that if he was truly 100% perfect, he would have absolutely no reason to stick with an imperfect schlep like me.

3. I will blog more. When I initially became interested in professional photography, I immediately found 5-10 amazing photographers that I admired and sought to learn from. They are all truly gifted photographers, and their work is brilliant and inspiring, but it was their personalities that I fell in love with. I was a fan of Jasmine Star before I ever once visited her portfolio website because I fell in love with her heart on her blog. My goal through this blog is not only to keep my clients, family, and friends updated on my recent projects, but to share my heart with you. I have a deep desire for my clients to know me, I mean really KNOW ME, before they ever sign the contract to hire me. I don’t want to be chosen to shoot someone’s wedding because I had the best package prices, happened to be available that day, or even necessarily because of the quality of my photos. I want a couple to read my blog and think “Man, that girl’s a little cooky and I think she would help make our wedding day just a little more relaxing, more fun, and I think she would get my sense of humor.” I CRAVE that. In 2010, I will create a stronger online presence for my business and will strive to get to know my client’s, not only for their photographic desires/needs, but their real hearts and souls and silliness and fun personalities. In exchange, I will show them more of me. My heart. My soul. My silliness (oh my, this could get ugly…)
4. I will take better care of myself. This is not a vow to work out 5 times per week, to only eat 1,000 calories per day, or to run that marathon I’ve been talking about for 5 years. This is simply a declaration that for the past year+ of my life (basically since I had Spencer), I haven’t really taken care of myself as I should. I make sure he eats nothing but whole, nutritious, mostly-organic meals and then turn around and buy ice cream for Chris and I. I insist that he gets a solid 12 hours of sleep per night, as well as a consistent nap every day. And yet, I’m frequently up “working” until 2 or 3am, only to wake up at 7:30 and spend the day that should be spent energetically chasing around my adorable little boy, standing with a cup of coffee in my hands while he runs circles around me, wishing I were smart enough to nap when he does. In 2010 I will focus on sleeping more, eating better, relaxing more, laughing greater, and loving deeper.
That’s it. It’s a small list and a simple one. It’s highly achievable and even that nasty pessimist in me is excitedly optimistic about the Julie v2.0 that this could bring about. Now, it’s time for me to implement #4 and go to bed before 1am. Right after I go rinse out my ice-cream bowl. Hmmmmm…What can I say…I’m a work-in-progress.
Hugs,
~Jewels
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